Not the Same

There was a mournful cry at my door.
And I let her in.
She sensed a change in the air.
And left as quickly as she came.

I was alone in despair.
Remembering all the things I had.
What I lost and what I left.
The scattered petals of a bouquet no one bothered to throw away.

In the morning perhaps I will feel different.
Then maybe I'll see the way.
But for the moment I'm forgotten and it's not the same.
If I had only done it right, then it would all be fixed.

Because I ran so hard and fast.
I never gave myself the chance to find what I wanted.
If I ignore my fear forever
I will never be content.

I'm afraid that I can't be who I promised I would be.
If I made a declaration and then reconsidered.
How could anyone ever trust me?
Sometimes it's okay that it's not the same.

Not What I Need

You couldn't stand to let me fall apart
You couldn't stand to see me as anything but beautiful
Or perhaps you thought I couldn't do it
Stand to see myself ashamed

How could I ever be anything but what you wanted?
What choice did I have?
Did you give me gifts of polished white gems?
How can I look at them and not be reminded of you?

You who are gone from me
Yet never far away
Always planning my next move
Yes, planning MY next move

I cannot move without you guiding me
Only with you can I find my way
If my heart is beating and my lungs are pumping
Then I know that you are there

Please remember that I had no choice in this
Please remember I had no strength
You are my eternal lover
I will say "I love you" even when you don't ask

So go off and find your way
Come and go as you please
I have nothing real to give you
You are NOT what I need

God is Watching

Do you ever feel a silent presence?
Do you ever feel eyes watching you?
You look around and there is no one to be found.
God is watching you.

He doesn't do it to be nosy.
He doesn't do it to spy.
He does it because he is your parent.
Parents watch their children.

He is all-seeing.
He is present in the trees.
He is present in everything.
We are lucky to have such a great father.

Pieces of Me

I wander through the yard...picking up pieces of myself.
They scattered in the wind some time ago.
Now I collect them and try to fit them together again.
I can only hope that I find the ones I need.

The pieces of me mend together.
I feel myself growing stronger.
They scattered for a reason.
Because what mends that has been broken is stronger.

The Seed

When the trumpets sounded
She listened
And heard the great thunder that they made
It wasn't hard

Then she summoned her troops
And called the guards
To her fortress
They would protect her with their lives

It wasn't a mistake that she was caught
Caught in the fortress that she made
Where trouble was frequent
And chaos reigned supreme

It was only by chance that she escaped
At the last second
With nothing to her name
Save a single seed

Sweet Love

When you curl up on his lap.
And he holds you.
There is nowhere to go.
You are where you need to be.

I love him.
With all my heart.
I want forever.
He wants forever.

Close and then closer.
Nice and then nicer.
Sweet and then sweeter.
Love is a promise between two people.

Fatal Speed

Maximum velocity can be fatal

Go one mph too fast and you may die

Feel the fat scraping off your bones

Your hair ripping back from your skull

Death by speed

Is like diving off the Golden Gate

Before you know it it's too late

Your skin is coming away from flesh

Running so fast you feel faint

Dying a little every day

We fight the pain away

To decorate our hearts with

Trophies of the races we ran

The fights we fought

The small deaths we died

And the apologies we made to our friends and foes

Never forget what you have heard

Never forget what you have seen

Never forget what you have felt

And never forget those you have loved deeply...even strangers...